I am in the state of rebellion. I am moving in the general direction of having the pleasure I receive from masturbating take over my life. The pre-planning that my unconscious mind is doing to intensify my ejaculation is becoming overpowering.
Is the love I have for female curves something that makes me crazy? I believe in my case, it does. I have no other choice than to abuse myself when female curves take over.
Masturbation is my way of letting females know how much I love them and their curves. I am obese and as such food has been major part of my life for a very long time. Lately I am thinking less about food and more about female curves.
The rebel in me is scared. The pleasure of sharing my love of female curves and the erect penis I get with others is becoming a problem. The pleasure of masturbation I enjoy has always been a solo affair. The rebel in me does not want to share it with anyone else, but I do want to watch, but not be watched. I have got to be crazy to deny myself the fun I would have masturbating with someone else on the Internet. I am afraid I would not be welcomed because I am obese.
Recently, I went on Chat roulette while wearing a ski mask. I cannot bring myself to expose my face. My naked huge belly is fully exposed, but my penis is only on the fringe of the view. I click real fast to jump to the next view most of the time when I see a solo male looking back at me. I beat him to the punch because I want to see females, I then enjoy seeing how long females will watch me masturbating. So far, I have not been watched by females except the one time where a couple of young girls burst out laughing while watching me. Needless to say they clicked on to the next camera view real fast. Hey, what can I say, I thought it was kind of cool just the same. I got my feet wet so to speak. Maybe next time a female(s) might watch me a bit longer while I stroke my penis. Ejaculating would be so great for the shy guy that I am.
I am also looking at cam4com, but I only watch there. The rebel in me is wanting me to appear on camera, but I am just not ready.
I am finding that my tastes in pornography knows no bounds (at least, not yet). I love the videos where the people are real and the male penis is out there for all to see while the females are at least semi clothed. I love when the females in the videos do things that are natural and innocent. Everyday people having fun letting ejaculations take place where the semen leaving the penis is exposed for all to see. Oh, I enjoy watching that.
The rebel in me is taking over.
Is the love I have for female curves something that makes me crazy? I believe in my case, it does. I have no other choice than to abuse myself when female curves take over.
Masturbation is my way of letting females know how much I love them and their curves. I am obese and as such food has been major part of my life for a very long time. Lately I am thinking less about food and more about female curves.
The rebel in me is scared. The pleasure of sharing my love of female curves and the erect penis I get with others is becoming a problem. The pleasure of masturbation I enjoy has always been a solo affair. The rebel in me does not want to share it with anyone else, but I do want to watch, but not be watched. I have got to be crazy to deny myself the fun I would have masturbating with someone else on the Internet. I am afraid I would not be welcomed because I am obese.
Recently, I went on Chat roulette while wearing a ski mask. I cannot bring myself to expose my face. My naked huge belly is fully exposed, but my penis is only on the fringe of the view. I click real fast to jump to the next view most of the time when I see a solo male looking back at me. I beat him to the punch because I want to see females, I then enjoy seeing how long females will watch me masturbating. So far, I have not been watched by females except the one time where a couple of young girls burst out laughing while watching me. Needless to say they clicked on to the next camera view real fast. Hey, what can I say, I thought it was kind of cool just the same. I got my feet wet so to speak. Maybe next time a female(s) might watch me a bit longer while I stroke my penis. Ejaculating would be so great for the shy guy that I am.
I am also looking at cam4com, but I only watch there. The rebel in me is wanting me to appear on camera, but I am just not ready.
I am finding that my tastes in pornography knows no bounds (at least, not yet). I love the videos where the people are real and the male penis is out there for all to see while the females are at least semi clothed. I love when the females in the videos do things that are natural and innocent. Everyday people having fun letting ejaculations take place where the semen leaving the penis is exposed for all to see. Oh, I enjoy watching that.
The rebel in me is taking over.
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