Thursday, July 23, 2009

The urge

I am now going to the senior center almost daily to try and get ready to start walking again. I am finding that I am getting a good workout from the machines that I can sit down on. I limit myself on the walking machines because the pain is still to be felt while walking. One thing that I do know from this daily exercise that I am doing is that my urge to masturbate has gone away for days at a time. I guess that can be both good and bad.

Anyway, since I have not posted anything in a while, I thought that I would upload a great report that was published in a newspaper and was posted in one of the yahoo groups that I often look at in my never ending search for jack off material. Oh yes, I guess you have figured it out already but the urge has returned this evening and my penis has at times been rock hard already and I am just getting going. I need to get back to the task at hand so that after I ejaculate into my catch towel, I can shut the darn confuser down, go wash up and get to bed so that I am able to get to the senior center bright and early for my workout of a different kind.

It's great when you have a penis between your legs to play with. Who knows, my mind might just start thinking about some of the ladies who have been showing up at the senior center. Hey, I am allowed to do that. Remember, it is just me, my mind, my hand and my penis. I don't have any contact with anyone to satisfy my needs, so I am always thinking in terms of what will get my penis hard even if I don't play with it all of the time anymore because I need to exercise.

If you can believe the article (and I do), maybe just looking at the women exercising even if they have clothes on is beneficial to my living longer as much as my exercising is.

Friday, July 10, 2009

To Start Off, Thank You

I want to take a moment to change the subject that I am usually mentioning when I spew my thoughts on this blog. The subject is the automobile companies that are based in the state of Michigan where I live. I spent a great deal of my working life at Ford Motor Company, you know, the company that has not yet filed for bankruptcy protection. I certainly hope that they do not have to go down that road.

Today it was announced that General Motors has emerged from bankruptcy as did Chrysler Corporation a few weeks ago. It got me thinking that with all of the negative press that these companies have gotten and the dislike of the government bailout, something needs to be said to the people of America - Thank You. I know the bailout is not popular and the government has played fast and loose with the bankruptcy laws. It is what it is and I say to America, Thank You.

While all across America things have been a little bit tough (my take on the situation) for the last couple of years, the last thing that anyone needs to think about is tax dollars being thrown away while they are having problems putting food on the table. To all of you I say Thank You for helping us while we are down. You see, the problems that you may be experiencing now, many, many residents of the state of Michigan have been living with for almost a decade now. While you are just now feeling the pain in your area when you see your local dealership closing and the employees losing there jobs, we in Michigan have been in a tailspin for 10 years and seemingly, we still don't see when it will end.

I live in Southeast Michigan (the metro Detroit area) and this economy, this community will never return to the way it was. It simply is gone. We are finding that it is hard to change, but change will come, if we want it or not. The world order is shifting. We need to adapt to the changes and I certainly hope that the 'Big Three' automobile companies will do that. They have been given a chance by you the American taxpayer to change and survive.

Building automobiles is a very expensive business to be in. You can buy the nuts and the bolts off of the shelf, but if you do not understand how those nuts and bolts will hold up in every day use, you will find yourself in trouble. People bad mouthing the 'Big Three' don't seem to understand that about nuts and bolts. They say, you have shelves and shelves of nuts and bolts, go build a car. If you take the time to do a little studying of what is needed to engineer every single part of an automobile, than you might begin to understand just how important having a car manufacturing business is to this country. Because there is so much that needs to be done to design, build, sell and service an automobile, it effects many areas of the country that you might never think of. If the only jobs that Americans will be able to get are jobs that do not pay a living wage, then we all will be in very serious trouble. I think the people who represent you in Washington are just now starting to figure that out. Anyway, I felt that I needed to say to all of you across America who may stumble across this rambling of mine - Thank You for helping the automobile industry. If they get it right and I hope that they do, there should be some nice automobiles for you to look at when you visit one of the remaining dealerships in your area when it comes time to buy a new automobile.


I went to the local senior center today to start to try and exercise. If you recall, I came down with a case of Sciatica back in February. While I now am feeling far better, I still cannot go out and walk around the neighborhood to get some badly needed exercise. The pain begins to come back after walking a short distance. The ability to walk without pain is lasting far longer than I thought it would so I am going to start using the equipment at the senior center that does not require walking. The workout went well and I plan on going back again on Monday.

After getting home from my workout, I had brunch and fell asleep watching the TV. Waking up I decide to go lay down in my bed. I have one of those memory foam beds and it feels great to lay on. Sadly, the foam does not hold up real well when someone my size sleeps on it every day. When the first mattress failed, the company replaced it with one that is better suited for someone who is obese. It certainly is better than the first mattress that I bought even if it is starting to show the same signs of failure. While it lasts, I very much enjoy using it.

One reason that I do enjoy the memory form mattress is that when I bought it, I needed to buy new sheets for it. The memory foam mattress is very thick and regular sheets down work because the 'pockets' are not deep enough. When I found a deal on a new set of sheets I decided to splurge and buy a set with a 600 thread count listed. Boy oh boy, am I spoiled. I never slept on a 600 thread count sheet before and I never want to go back to what I had.

So here I am laying in my bed on 600 thread count sheets with a belly full of food and feeling good about working out. I have the ceiling fan turned on and I am looking out the window and the breeze is blowing through the trees causing the leaves to move in the wind. The temperature is getting close to 80 degrees outside and the house is still cool from overnight. It is real comfortable and the weather has been great for 5 or 6 days now. As great as everything is, I don't seem to be able to drift off to sleep and think that I needed to do something. That something was my little rant above.
I knew that after I finished that, I would try and have a enjoyable time playing with myself. It is nice and warm, sunny outside and I have the windows wide open. It is a perfect time to strip off all of my clothes, scratch my balls, search the Internet and catch up on some of the blogs that I like to look at. I will end up by soiling my catch towel which I love to do.

When I do check out different sites on the Internet I am amazed to find so many different things that are sexual and turn me on. For example, I do enjoy from time to time looking at some of the domination sites. I cannot ever seeing me doing anything like that myself, but I do like to watch sometimes as long as it does not get to intense. When it gets real intense, I go elsewhere. I am not gay, but because I check out so many things having to do with masturbation, I am often looking at naked guys. I have no desire to play with someone Else's penis (touching, licking, sucking etc.) but because it is still sexual, sometimes I linger on those sites longer than I normally do. Most of the time, I will just quickly pass through, looking for links to other sites. It seems a little funny to me that I know that I am not gay, but I still sometimes look at gay sites.

I recently received a private message from someone who said that he sometimes looks at my site and sometimes enjoys some of the things that I write about. He goes on to say that while he is not obese like me, he does have a well rounded belly. Because he is willing to share his sexual thoughts about masturbating, he sets up a scene where we are both masturbating and we then bump or bellies together. After a little bumping we can begin to play with each others penises. We would masturbate each other. I don't think I would ever do something like that, but I do enjoy thinking that doing something like that could really be intense and maybe very satisfying. I guess I should say now - never say never.

I certainly need to get up off of my fat ass and get out and experience what it would be like to have a sexual experience with someone, I just don't think I am ready for something like that. I think that it could be very interesting to experience masturbating with others as long as they would be open to doing it with someone who is obese. I am not talking about touching someone else, only myself and them, only themselves.

Yes, I think it is interesting to dream about doing things like that. Having a penis to play with is so much fun in so many different ways. As it is with most of my postings, I am including some photos that I for whatever reason find enjoyable to look at. I have found these on various sites on the Internet and wanted to share them with you. Who knows, they may inspire you to tug on your penis if you are a guy, or tease your clitoris if you are a girl. If you do, remember that these pictures also gave me reason to play with myself. Oh boy, that's fun just thinking that we are playing with ourselves while looking at the same thing.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Off Schedule

I try to follow a pattern. Because I am a loner, I don't need to clean up my act or myself very often. I am so lazy that I follow a schedule of taking a shower about once every 4 or 5 days. About that time I can begin to smell myself stinking up the room and take my word for it, it is not nice. So I take a shower and I am good to go for another 4 or 5 days. Because I look at cleaning up as work (a necessary evil) when one is very lazy as I am, I am reluctant to want to masturbate on the day after I have taken a shower. I will often pass on jacking off on the second day as well because I think that my smell is still somewhat fresh. I find that there is a lingering odor left when I masturbate and dirty myself down around my penis. Therefore, to help me get through the period of denial, I almost always masturbate on the day or day before I take a shower. So hear is my problem. I took a shower today and I am now in my period of denial. Because I am weak, I am finding that I have a problem.

My normal routine when I go around surfing the web to find things to masturbate to, I often will want to save the pictures that get me hard. Because I do not have a good grasp on using all of the features of using a computer, I will store the pictures on my desktop. When my desktop starts to get a little crowded on the side that I keep the pictures I don't want anybody who looks at my computer to see, I will upload them to my Picasa account. I still have not figured that thing out and probably never will. Anyway, since I spent all this time uploading this new batch of pictures, then placing a caption under each one and trying to delete the ones I have already uploaded, I find that it is just to much to ignore. I mean I uploaded over 100 pictures of undressed people and/or dressed people doing things that make me want to masturbate.

Well, there is no way I can get by without bringing on an ejaculation when I am done with this update. I don't think I will be able to wait for 4 or 5 days before taking a shower this time. I am going to get out a freshly washed catch towel with a hint of Lavender and then undress and plop myself back down in my chair and surf the Internet finding stuff to whack off to.

Life's a bitch, but when you have a penis to play with it certainly makes life a whole lot better. I kind of feel sorry for the females of the world because there is no way they have it as good as we guys do. I think I will concentrate on softly playing with my penis for a change, at least until I need to take myself over the cliff. I don't think I will try and choke my penis while I let loose today either. Most times I try to shoot into the catch towel which is several inches away from my penis in an attempt to prevent the lingering smell from hanging around my penis when it is soft and shriveled up and hidden under my excess skin. My thinking is that if most of the semen shoots out and away there will be less that needs to be wiped off my penis and surrounding skin. But I say today I will do it different because I am already off schedule as far as showering/jacking off goes. It's interesting to experiment with the sensations one has when playing with oneself. There is no mystery. Am I doing it right. Does she enjoy it. Well guess what. I am starting to get a little moist down there. I think it is time for me to get down to business. Bye now and thanks to everyone who is so willing to share what turns you on.